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Sunday 30 December 2012

Between the years


There is magic in the nights between the years. Dreams come true.

There is also magic in the days. 













Frida hiding from the rain


Christmas chocolate


More contemplation.


What do I want?


I am making decisions. Some of them painful. 

After so many years with my man, we are drifting apart. Realizing that we are on different boats, in a different current.


With me, hope dies very slowly.


Accepting. Being a mother, being a woman. And doing what has to be done.
Being as honest as I can stand it, and sometimes a bit more so.


Sitting with it.


 


And then letting it all be, drawing and painting with Eva, and loosing at noughts and crosses.


All is always well in the moment.


Watching her concentrate, the tongue peeking out. The wind throws the door closed. Dark clouds out of the blue. 

But no rain this time.



 



Blue people on the wall, glitter on my shirt, life encroaching and a raspberry cupcake.





Magic days to you.




Lots of love,




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31 comments:

  1. Shabby Brocante, Karen30 December 2012 at 18:38

    Love your honesty and find it fresh and real. It's good that your hope dies slowing. Sometimes the boats reunite...I do wish you magic, no matter wat coursethose boats take! We all deserve it. I could use a lot more magic myself!!! Love your photos...Frida is cute :) Happy New Year, Jutta.
    Karen

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  2. Esther30 December 2012 at 19:22

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  3. Razmataz30 December 2012 at 19:23

    Sometimes there is no life boat and people hang on for dear life and everyone drowns. I wish you clarity in your decisions and a peaceful resolution whatever it is.

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  4. Esther30 December 2012 at 19:23

    COURAGE madame!
    <3 and a BIIIIIIIIIG hug

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  5. Maureen Wyatt30 December 2012 at 19:46

    Time is a precious commodity and I'm sorry for the 10 yrs. I hung on. What seemed like a virtue was really a choice to remain in situation that didn't allow growth in either individual. For my part, fear of the future was the controlling factor. I know you have everything you need within you to handle these changes with grace, intelligence and courage.

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  6. Anonymous31 December 2012 at 01:21

    Raw honesty and beauty in the words and photos. You've so clearly shown the interconnectedness of the many pieces of our lives that come into play and complicate all our decisions.

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  7. Amy of While Wearing Heels2 January 2013 at 07:02

    Sweet Jutta. Your very real and honest post is such a brave one. This post reminds us all, we don't have to pretend to portrait perfection on our blogs. May you find peace and happiness and answers in 2013. Stay strong and follow your heart.

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  8. Natalie @ NorthShore Days2 January 2013 at 14:38

    Aw Jutta.... I've just seen your post. Love you girl you are strong and honest and beautiful. All the best for a fruitful, Happy 2013 xxxx

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  9. Danni@SiloHillFarm2 January 2013 at 14:42

    Oh Jutta, hope dies hard and slow with me too! I am a hanger on for possibilities that may never happen. But there is another side to hope that is so much more! Looks like you're finding it girl! As always, I love your honesty and your powerful words! You know where to find me anytime.

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  10. Fluster Buster6 January 2013 at 22:55

    I’m a new follower! I saw your link @ It’s a Party. I also host a party on Wednesday’s. I would love it if you would stop by and share your talent and creativity with my friends @
    http://www.flusterbuster.com/search/label/Fluster%20Muster%20Party

    Robin
    www.FlusterBuster.com

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  11. Kizzy7 January 2013 at 11:20

    Wow what lovely words and photo's.

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  12. must love junk8 January 2013 at 00:45

    Just found you through The Dedicated House hop and I'm now following. Love your house pics! (and I hope 2013 brings you happiness re: your decisions.)
    Susan

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  13. Liz @ Quirky Vistas8 January 2013 at 13:23

    Moment photographs, they are amazing. You have conveyed so much here with your images and your thoughts. May you find the strength you need.
    Liz

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  14. Unknown8 January 2013 at 14:38

    My tongue peeks out when I concentrate too. That is too funny!

    I'm having a GOOGLE + Social hop. I'd love for you to hop on over, grab a button and link up your Google +. If you don't have Google + it's ok, come link up your blog or favorite post.

    http://mydailyphotojourney.blogspot.com/2013/01/google-social-hop.html


    I'm also looking for Pinterest Pinners to feature every week beginning in January. If you are on Pinterest and are interested in being featured come link up! Who knows you might meet some other great pinners and gain a few great ideas.

    http://mydailyphotojourney.blogspot.com/2012/12/looking-for-pinners.html

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  15. CraftLee9 January 2013 at 14:30

    Beautiful and sad, thank you for your post - It gave me cause to pause. Good luck to you on your journey sweetness. x

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  16. Mind Body and Sole10 January 2013 at 08:50

    Thank you for sharing your post on Wildcrafting Wednesday. I'm sure it will give many readers a reason to stop and contemplate their blessings. You have hard decisions coming your way, my only thoughts are that boats go where the captain directs them and love is a verb. Many blessings to you this year. :)

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    1. Unknown10 January 2013 at 12:21

      Thanks so much for your beautiful comment! Love is a verb, this is so true :-)
      Hugs
      Jutta

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  17. Rose :: Fine Craft Guild .com11 January 2013 at 00:35

    LOVE is a choice. Get peddles. Don't drift. Organize that living solution. Those are the thoughts that come to my mind. As well as this: love is always easy when it flows. YOU deserve the best.

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    1. Unknown11 January 2013 at 06:37

      Thank you so much Rose. Yes, love is easy (or simple?). it is the demands of the ego that make it difficult.. I will be fine.
      Hugs
      Jutta

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  18. Unknown11 January 2013 at 16:53

    I'm a first time visitor - I came over from One Project Closer - so I'm hesitant to comment on such a personal post. However, my husband and I were in a really rough spot in our marriage about 10 years ago - we both felt like we were dying inside. We went to a Weekend to Remember Marriage conference (hosted by Family Life, they have them all over the country) and it forced us to really talk about our issues and get to the core instead of just the symptoms. We also read Love and Respect by Emmerson Eggerich and then talked about what we read. There's also a Love and Respect Marriage Conference, I've heard great things but we haven't been.

    If I've overstepped, I'm sorry and feel free to delete my comment.

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  19. Kathryn Ferguson Griffin11 January 2013 at 20:09

    Hugs, hugs, hugs. My heart is squeezed for you. The pictures are beautiful and little Frida is so cute there. Thank you for sharing your heart, you brave girl at the Make it Pretty Monday party at The Dedicated House. Hope to see your prettiness again on Monday. I have a feeling you will be in my mind and on my heart this weekend. Toodles, Kathryn @TheDedicatedHouse

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  20. Heather11 January 2013 at 20:24

    Thanks for linking up to "It's Party Time' linky party! Excellent post from your heart...thanks so much for sharing with us your thoughts.

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  21. Katherines Corner13 January 2013 at 04:49

    you open your hearts to us. I respect you and treat you gently. Wishing you clarity and peace. Thank you for sharing at the hop xo

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  22. Jocie@TheBetterHalf14 January 2013 at 06:01

    Hey Jutta, Thanks for sharing so openly. Sounds like a hard time you are going through and I hope you have wisdom and peace for the decisions you are making. Hugs!

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    1. Unknown14 January 2013 at 09:48

      Thanks so much dear Jocie. it is going pretty ok :-). have a beautiful day, love, jutta

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  23. Natural Mothers Network15 January 2013 at 13:30

    Jutta, I do hope you find peace and happiness soon, your honesty and love will surely bring that quickly about. My thoughts are with you at this challenging time. Thank you so much for sharing this with us at Seasonal Celebration Wednesday.

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    1. Unknown16 January 2013 at 18:34

      Thank you so much for your lovely comment. It helps so much to read all your encouraging and supportive comments. Makes me realize how little support i actually had for quite a long time now...
      thank you also for hosting this beautiful party.
      a big hug dear friend
      Jutta

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  24. Connie Nelson15 January 2013 at 21:27

    Love this :) Thanks for linking with me.

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